Friday Update: Week 6

Start weight: 204 lbs
Current weight: 200 lbs
Goal weight:  160 lbs

So, I haven’t lost any weight. No surprise, really, since I’ve been focusing more on my GED, this week. Well, I have lost a couple of ounces, but let’s face it. We like to see real numbers. Yes, I know every ounce counts, but I’m a little lazy with the decimals.

Two out of three of my kids are having seasonal allergies this week so I’ve been wiping boogers. A lot of boogers. The sudden transition from 90°F weather to 70°F was a little harsh on their sinuses, I suppose. Then, there’s Dillon. I know everyone says men are crybabies when they’re sick, but this is ridiculous. I’m actually surprised I haven’t lost a little more weight.

Anyway, since I’ve focused on my GED, I want to share that it’s going smoothly, so far. I managed to pass all the pretests for the Reasoning through Language Arts/Reading portion of it. I’m not so sure how I will do for the Mathematics part. That was never my best subject. I guess it didn’t help that I slept through most of those classes, though.

What? That class was towards the end of the day and I was tired! I have my reasons!

My best friend and my sister have been kicking my a** to motivate me into keeping that up, so I won’t lie and say I’ve been motivating myself for it. I’m grateful for that, too. We all need a kick in the pants, sometimes.

I still continue to have control over my anxiety and depression. I also still continue to be stoked about it. I mean, that was one of the main reasons I started all of this, after all. I actually feel like it’s getting easier to control it. It definitely helps that I have busied myself. Gettin’ stuff done, y’all! Seriously, I can’t even describe how much better I feel. It’s like I’m slowly figuring myself out. The weight is lifting from my shoulders, slowly, but surely.

I always felt that guilt that seemed to come from nowhere. It was eating me up, inside. The worst part was not knowing where it came from and why it was there. Lately, I’ve been able to come to terms with it, though. I’ve been able to forgive myself, and hopefully will continue to grow that forgiveness so that it reaches others as well. I believe that was so much of my anxiety. I find myself crying less tears of sadness and more tears of joy. So, I want to take a moment and thank everyone who has supported me through this and will continue to support me. You guys are the greatest.

Most of all, I thank God for answering my prayers. I’m so happy that I could be blessed with such amazing things in my life, and none of this would have been possible if it weren’t for answered prayers.

There is one more thing: the hurricane. We haven’t had a bad hurricane since Katrina in 2005. The Weather Channel has been talking about how this one (Irma) could potentially be worse than that. If that’s the case and if it does come towards Mississippi, we might not have power for a while. If it’s like it was during Katrina. That’s a story for another day, though. So I just wanted to let you guys know if you don’t hear from me for a week or two that’s probably why.

Pray for anyone who already has been hit by it and those that are in its path.

I am terrified.

Love you!
-Courtney

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