How have you guys been doing? I’ve been great! It’s been a while since I posted something, but I’ve been thinking.
No, not overthinking. My mind has just been at work, again.
I had a conversation with a good friend of mine a few days ago. Something she said has been stuck with me ever since. She said, “You need to find something that makes you happy.”
Makes me happy…
Well, I thought the only thing that would make me happy would be romance-related. It was always something I wanted. To be loved by a great man. While I do have all the love I could want (at least when he’s not playing video games), I still feel like something is missing.
Then, a couple of days after that conversation, I kept thinking about what could fill that void. What do I want, other than a fairy tale romance? What is my purpose? Am I good at anything? These questions, along with others, swam around my brain.
It was like someone had just implanted the answer in my head. I want to help people.
I want to be a psychiatrist.
After this realization, I already felt the void being filled with this desire to work towards my ambition. I want to go to college, even if I only have my GED, I don’t want anything to stop me from my dream.
So, I’ll work hard. I’ll strive for a new chapter in my life. With the love and support from the people around me, I’ll be someone.
Someone who will be remembered for reaching out to others.
I think this anxiety and depression was a part of my life for a reason. It helped me grow, and discover a more “in-depth” meaning of what it is to have a life filled with fear. And it’s because of this, I want to be there for others. I want to be able to say, “Hey, I know what it’s like to feel like you have no one. I know what it’s like to cry out for help and feel like no one can hear you.”
I feel like God is calling me to do this, and I will not let Him down!
I even have a college picked out.
I am nervous. In a good way, of course!